I originally found this particular question a little too generic. I'm sure we all have something we'd wish people would say which are specific to them and our relationships with them. Perhaps we desperately want an apology from someone who hurt us, or we want someone special to say those three words. Perhaps we want someone to say thank you for the help we gave them, or we wish somebody had said goodbye instead of leaving with unanswered questions and a sense of 'what if?' I then realised that, as usual, I was over complicating the question.
What I mostly want to hear is 'you know what, this sucks right now for you and that's okay.' Sometimes it's almost infuriating hearing people talk about how things will get better, that it's just a temporary state of emotion. I know nine times out of ten that it will pass, and I won't feel like the world is collapsing around me forever, but it does feel that way right now and sometimes I wish people would just help me through the moment instead of proffering a positive future. I know it comes from a place of love, I know I'm guilty of saying it myself sometimes, but I'm trying to work on that because I know how unhelpful it is. Sometimes life just sucks, and I personally think its perfectly okay to just feel that in the moment. I don't want to be constantly reminded how strong I am. I know I am strong; the problem is sometimes I just don't want to have to be. Sometimes I'm just exhausted of being strong and fighting every day to survive.
I'd like someone to just say 'congratulations, you made it through the day.'
Sometimes I feel I deserve a medal just for getting up, washing, and brushing my teeth. Sometimes I think that the fact that I managed to basic chores and get dressed while my mind is on fire is worthy of recognition. And when I manage to also integrate into society and socialise and be productive; well, I daresay I'm really, really proud of myself.
I'd like more people to ask how I'm doing and actually mean it. I'm all too aware people mostly just ask out of politeness and they just want to hear 'good, thanks.' They don't actually want to know; it's just social niceties.
Most importantly; I'd like people to stop asking your job title, marital status and living situation as basic means of finding out what kind of person you are, because I don't think that tells me anything about anyone. I'm interested in what makes you tick, what you're passionate about, what dreams do you have? I'm interested in how you treat people, how you treat animals, how you view the world. I don't want to know if you work behind a desk or if you go door-to-door as a cold caller, I want to know what puts the light in your eyes. I want to know your hobbies and what you do in your down time. What fascinates you, what gets you out of bed in the morning? And I'd really like people to want to know those kind of things about me, instead of just 'what do you do for work?'
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