WHAT ARE YOUR TOP THREE INTENTIONS AND HOW CAN YOU MEET THEM?

1. Heal
I want to work further on my personal growth, understanding the past and how it has shaped who I am today and furthermore how I can turn those bad experiences into a better future for myself. It means going deeper into the things I've locked away, it means taking the advice of health professionals and it means taking myself a little further out of my comfort zone. 
I can do this by continuing to give it my all, throwing myself into recovery, and when the time comes to start the next phase of my therapy; fully commit to it and be honest throughout. It's also important for me to remember that recovery isn't a straight line, and that relapse is a part of mental illness and to not punish myself if my progress regresses at any point. Sometimes we have to get worse to get better, sometimes things are difficult and we slip into old habits, and as long as we acknowledge this and work towards the future then it isn't anything to fear. 

2. Get published
I've done the hardest part; the grafting. I've put in the hours over the last few years writing poems which I now feel ready to share with the world. I'm in contact with people over artwork. Once that's in the final stages, I can take a deep breath and a huge leap of faith and get my work out there into the world. Once that's done, I can take more time on my planned novel and see where that takes me..

3. Move out
Whilst I'm incredibly lucky to have somewhere to call home, and somewhere I'm looked after, I'm pushing 30 and whilst I accept it won't be in the next few months or so, I plan to one day be able to stand on my own two feet and have a place to call my own. I can do this by continuing to recover, by taking a more active role in planning and organising my life, and by hopefully getting help and advice both from family and professionals with regards to finding somewhere safe for me and getting support in the community to ensure I start off on the right track. I don't want another scenario where I move out, fail and come home with my tail between my legs; I want to find a home of my own which I can be happy and if not thrive then at least do better than just survive in.